i want an easy way out
My desire to be a boy is partly caused by the fact that I feel disconnected from being a girl and wanting to escape womanhood. What bothers me is that even if you remove these feelings, I’d still want to be a man. It’s not autoandrophilia caused by horrible amounts of male-centered content, far from it. I see a boy minding his business in school and I feel so jealous I want to hurt him. For these reasons I think I should not transition. I would never irrevocably alter my body for any reason at all actually—especially not to calm my thoughts.